WW weekly update

Stats:

Lost/gained: +1.4

Total lost: 6.8

I was going to do this post earlier this week but my freaking computer won't download my pictures off the card because it says it can't recognize the file(?).  I don't get it so instead you get a generic picture of me.  Lame!  But real life, right?

I gained 1.4 pounds.  Oy.  I am actually okay about it now.  To say I was slightly upset a few days ago would be a humongous understatement.  Which is funny because I actually knew going into the weigh in that I probably gained.  That is what happens when you don't follow the program.  HA!  Funny thing how if you do the work, barring any health issues, you will lose weight.  It is the whole being disciplined thing that got me.  I am a rebel at heart.  Which sounds pathetic when I look at it from this point of view.  I am rebelling against my own health.  That isn't bringing down "the man".  It is just getting in the way of my goals and life.  I am not sure how to get over that little rebellion.  Tell me how!!!  Help! 

 I will say that I don't want to go in there and gain again.  Not at all.  I feel like I really let myself down.  I have the discipline to change.  I am just afraid of failing this time like I have so many other times.  It hurts to let yourself down.  It hurts to know that you are the only one to blame.  So why not fail early so it won't hurt so bad?  Does that sound ridiculous to anyone else?  I deserve better than this body I have created.  This is not who I am.  I am strong.  I am healthy!  This body is my past and I am going to start running like hell at the future!

This week is going to be all about tracking.  Tracking is basically writing down everything you eat and the points that correlate with those foods.  Weeks that I track I rock!  And I am ready to rock.  I am making a realistic goal of tracking everything for 5 days this week.  With at least one of those days to be a weekend day.  Weekends are my biggest challenge. 

What are your goals this week? 

    

WW weekly update

Stats:

Lost: 2 pounds!

Total Lost: 8.2

Can I get a what what?!  I am down another two pounds.  I am so pumped up.  I just want to keep this momentum going.  This week I am hoping to lose 3 pounds.  That should be pretty doable.  My sister told me about Skinny Taste.  It is a site that has a lot of WW Points Plus recipes.  I am going to try a few out this week and see how they go. I am grateful for the people that came before me and figured out the points and skinny versions of my favorite foods!  Takes a lot of guessing and experimenting out of the equation.  Which in the long run can help my success.  I get frustrated really easily.  So I will take all the help I can get!  I am still trying to figure out the weekends.  They are my biggest issue.  I rock the week and then come Saturday morning I seem to lose all control.  Ugh one meal at a time right?  Any tricks that anyone knows? 

I think next week I am going to wear a tight shirt.  I want to see the progress and not hide it under a loose shirt.

The ever lovely full front shot

I decided that I need a rear view.  I want all perspectives!

I tried Skinny Cow vanilla ice cream sandwiches this week.  My mind is blown!  They are surprisingly good for a "diet" food.  The cookie was a little crisp and the ice cream was creamy.  At a 4 PP value they are going to be a regular item in our freezer.  To say I recommend them is an understatement. I want to try the other flavors soon!

WW weekly update

This weeks lost: .2 pounds

Total lost: 6.2

My weight loss goal for this week is 2 pounds.

Ha!  .2?  Awesome.  I am actually pretty thrilled that I lost at all considering it was Easter and spring break.  I was expecting to gain.  So YAY!  Plus the leader that weighed me was so excited for my loss!  She never made me feel like it was a pathetic loss- which is what I thought.  She was supportive and kind.  Which was a perfect reaction. 

Are picture updates every week too often?  I am afraid that I won't see a difference.  I start getting frustrated when I can't see a change.  Maybe I will do a monthly round up?  I am not sure.  I am still trying to figure this all out.

Anyone have advice for the weekend?  We tend to party all weekend long.  I need to reign the food part in.  Maybe plan more actual activities?  Or maybe we will experiment with recipes on the weekend?  I have to figure that part out still.

I am grateful that this time around I am taking it one meal at a time.  I have all the time in the world to figure out the Point Plus program.  So there is no rush.  I get that sneaking feeling popping up every once in a while that I need to rush the weight loss and be down to goal in 5.6 seconds.  That is just not going to happen.  Nor do I want it that way.  My weight and eating habits are mostly emotional.  I need the time to get my angst worked out.  If I lose too fast I will gain it back and then some.  That is not healthy physically or mentally.  One meal at a time.  That is my motto.  I will say that I am mostly very calm about the process this time.  I have gotten frustrated but it isn't to the point where I want to quit.  That is crazy!  I usually throw the towel in at the first sign of difficulty.  Not this time!

Any and all advice is welcome!  Anyone out there doing the WW Points Plus program?  Or any weight loss program?  I would love to hear success and frustrations!  Lets do this together!

Weight Watchers

So I have decided to once again get serious about weight loss.  How many times have you read that here?  Oh gosh lets not even try to count.  I am hoping it will be different this time.  I actually have a plan.  I have a plan!  I joined Weight Watchers two weeks ago.  Their points plan is one that I can maintain for my life.  Not just crash dieting to lose and then turn around and gain it right back and then some.  I love the support and community that comes with being part of Weight Watchers too.  Plus it is highly recommended by every doctor that has spoken to me about weight loss.  Not too mention that I have had a lot of success in the past on the program. 

 I had my first weeks weigh in last Thursday and have lost 6 pounds.  6 pounds in one week!  Awesome.   I know that the high loss is in large part because it was my first week.  I always lose big my first week.  So I am not expecting it to be like that every weigh in.  In all actuality I will be surprised if I haven't gained this week.  Between Easter weekend and it being spring break I haven't followed the plan too close. HA!  But I am off and running! 

So I was looking through my pictures and this one from January is the only full body shot I have.  Yeah I avoid the camera.  

Should I do a weekly update?  Monthly?  Progress photos?  Recipes that have been a success?  I am not sure yet.  But update I will.

Weight Loss Week #11

So last week my goal was to lose 1.6 pounds making it an even 18 pounds lost.  Well I blew that goal right on out of the water!  I lost 3.2 pounds.  YAY!!  I am now up to 19.6 pounds lost.  I am so proud of myself.  Only .4 pounds left to hit the even 20.  Awesome!  So guess what my goal is this week?  Yeah .4 pounds.  Just kidding guys!  I want to lose 1.4 pounds.  

I am going to continue to count my calories this week.  I need help figuring out this whole water thing.  I got to get it my body but I am having a hard time with the desire.  Maybe I should just look at it like it is non-negotiable.  It might not be my favorite thing but it is absolutely necessary.  

On to my really revealing pictures!  I think I am going to be taking my pictures in stretchy pants from now on.  They leave nothing to the imagination!

I am pleased to say that my back rolls are shrinking!  That is the place I can see the weight loss the most.  

I like this list of 9 healthy snacks.  I am hoping it will help.  Snack time is my hardest time!

Weight Loss week #10

I am two days late with this update but at least I am here right?!  So I gained .6 pounds.  I know I shouldn't be bummed out about that just over half pound but I am having a big time plateau over here.  Is it really a plateau when I am being a major slacker?  Probably not. :)  Lets raise a glass of metabolism boosting water to re-re-recommitting! 

I am using the Lose it! app again.  And so far this week I am doing great at not going over my calories. I am also still working on getting my water intake up.  But I hates it!  It makes me feel great to drink water but I am not a fan of the lack of taste.  Except the water Nick brings home from work.  I am telling you that UPS water is the best water.  I haven't been able to convince him to fill me up a gallon of it every night.  It might look a little tacky I guess.

To the stats- I am still down 16.4 pounds.  My goal is to be 18 pounds down by the end of this week.  I can manage 1.6 pounds right?!

I need to get out of the shade but it was bright!

Loverly side view

And from behind.  

I am feeling comfort food lately.  But that can be bad for the diet so I am going to try this lightened up meatloaf.

Is it week 8? OR maybe 9?

So this is week what?  Like 8 or 9 for my weight loss journey.  I am losing track.  I can't even say how much I have gained or lost this week.  I stepped on my scale this morning and it said I lost 3 pounds.  I was crazy excited!  I got off of it and stepped back on just to make sure and it said I had gained four.....  So what I am trying to say is that I think my scale is on the fritz.  I am hoping it is just a dying battery.  Or maybe I will go with the 3 pounds lost.  I need a win this week!  No I am kidding (mostly).  I will be replacing the battery and maybe getting a whole new one this weekend.  So I will be back with a real weight loss post next week.  

These are the only pictures I have this week.  I had to work and run people to doctor appointments today so I decided that pictures were a low priority.  I hate when life gets in the way of me living my life!  

Nice shot eh?  It was the only full frontal. Yes people I said full frontal.  And you guessed it- I am naked under those clothes.  Full on!

And now onto the sassy side view.  Eat your heart out!

 I think I am going to try this oven fried chicken recipe this weekend.  It is supposed to be healthy.  I need all the healthy recipes I can get.  I haven't got the faintest clue how to cook to lose weight.  I guess I will figure it out one recipe at a time.  I will let you know what it is like.  Any and all help and suggestions would be greatly appreciated!!!!!

Weight Loss week #7

SO you know how when you miss a couple days blogging when you are super busy and you apologize and everyone is okay with it?  I missed a few days this week and all I can say is that I flat out didn't turn the computer on.  I kept thinking I should but I didn't day after day.  And it was fabulous!  So here is my weight loss post a couple days late.  

I haven't lost anything.  I took the week off from the scale last week.  I think that had a lot to do with it. I can't say that I regret it though.  I needed that break.  To be totally honest I am grateful that I didn't gain.  Between the fair last week and the fact that the month of no sugar is over I am a little surprised that I didn't gain a whole mess of weight!  I am back on the wagon again this week.  Keep on keeping on!    

My goal weight loss is two pounds for the week.  I am going to work on portion control and continuing trying to drink all my water.  Last week I mentioned that I want to drink 100 ounces a day.  I have yet to do that.  It is hard!  Maybe I should pull it back to 62 ounces.  That would be more feasible for me considering that I usually drink about 8.  Yeah it is that bad!

On to the pics of the week

 Don't mind my goofy face....

or my less than lovely background....

or my backside ;)

Weight Loss week #6

lots of this has happened this week!

I think today is the day I am supposed to do a weight loss update but I am not going to.  At least not a full post.  I think I have lost weight but I am refusing the scale this week.  I can't bring myself to do it.  That little square of bamboo is starting to rule my life.  Which can be good and bad.  Right now it is bad.  So I am giving it a rest.  I am still working on losing those pounds though.  I haven't given up on the end result by any means.  And I will be back next week with a full on weight loss extravaganza! 

I am still not eating sugar and I still fully endorse that!  I feel great!  I think the next month or so I am going to really concentrate on drinking enough water.  On top of the limited sugar of course.  I know that I am not drinking nearly enough liquid.  Like no where near enough.  My goal is to drink 100 ounces of liquid every day.  I am saying liquid because I am including tea in that 100 ounces.  The first time I did Weight Watchers- yes I did say the first- I think that the majority of my weight loss in the first few weeks was really because of the amount of water I was drinking.  It seemed to be flushing the fat out of my system.  Which might be a pretty accurate description!  At least a lot of toxins any way.   I am hoping that if I can keep up that amount of water over thirty days it will become a habit.  I am trying to replace the bad habits with some good ones.  Every step counts!   

Weight Loss week #5

I lost another 5 pounds peeps!  My count is up to 17 pounds total.  I know that my weight loss will probably simmer down after a few weeks but I am pretty excited about what I have accomplished so far.  All I am really hoping for is 2 pounds a week so I will be thrilled to lose that much every week.  Anything more loss than that is a little bonus.  

All I am doing is cutting out sugar right now.  It is getting easier and easier.  I think it is something I can continue doing after the 19th when my challenge is done.  I am not 100% off but I am not having it every day.  More like once a week and a very small portion.  I have been feeling so much better.  I never noticed that I didn't feel good until I started to feel good.  HAHA!

 I was having a hard time seeing a change in myself.  I stare at myself day in and day out so the changes aren't as obvious.  But when I look at the front view from this week and the one from my first week below I can start seeing the change.  My tummy is shrinking a bit.  Yay!

Sorry about the lack luster pictures!  I worked a long shift today.  It was rough!

Weight Loss week #4

This week was a great one with the weight loss!  I lost three pounds.  I am officially up to 12 pounds lost.  W00T!  Can I get an amen?!  I hope they never find me again.

  I mentioned last week that I am giving up sugar for a month.  It apparently worked wonders for me this week.  Let's hope the momentum keeps going!  You know the best part?  I didn't count a single calorie.  I did, however, have to give up one of my major vices.  I admit I had a scoop of ice cream at a neighborhood ice cream social.  I am a social sugar eater.  But other than that I controlled myself.  I am proud.  On to the weekly pictures.  I know that I have a lot of weight to lose but I was hoping against hope to notice a little more of a change after 12 pounds.  Maybe I should do a slider thing with monthly pictures?  Maybe then I can get a better look at my progress.  

    

I look pregnant here.  Boo!

One thing I noticed giving up the sugar is that within the first three days my taste buds exploded!  Everything I ate had a very enhanced flavor.  I noticed particularly a spiciness to my Pepsi Max (don't judge!) that I had never noticed before.  It is a little sad to think I have been missing out on the true vibrant flavors of my food!  

I honestly don't think I could maintain this strict restriction in my diet but I do believe I can get it under control.  That is all I am hoping for.  I need to remember that sweets are not supposed to be an every single day type of thing.  They are supposed to be a treat. 

   

Weight Loss week 2&3 combined

OH weight loss... I love and hate the process of losing weight.  I got so excited over some weight loss that I gained weight.  5 pounds to be exact!  BOO!  I am a little angry with myself right now.  This is a pretty typical thing for me to do.  I think that I lost some weight easy peasy so I can let my guard down.  But unfortunately that is not the case right now.  I need to be pretty vigilant.  Not that I want my whole life to revolve around losing weight.  On the other hand my life needs to revolve around it!  I know there are a lot of people that think you can be seriously overweight and be healthy but I have yet to have a doctor or read a study that says that.  To each their own but I do know for sure that this body I have created is not a healthy one.  All the signs point to serious issues down the road.  I have no stamina and my lungs hurt when I exert myself.  I get tired after a few minutes of playing with the kids.  A flight of stairs winds me.  That is a clear indication that I am not healthy and need to change.  

So with that in mind I am doings something illogical!  I am going to stop counting my calories for the next month.  My girlfriend and I are doing a no-sugar challenge.  No sugar for a month!  I am a sugar fiend.  This next month should be interesting.  I really want to do this though.  However, I feel that if I am jonesing for sugar and counting calories I will go nuts.  So no calorie counts until September 19th.    

 Front view!

Side view!

back view(?)!

OH and I should add that I did lose some of that weight.  I am currently only .4 pounds over what I had originally lost.  SO my total weight loss is 8.4 pounds.  I am a big winey baby I guess!  Seeing the number go up on the scale sent me into a frenzy and I picked myself out of my cookie haze and recommitted!  

Weight Loss... A Haiku

I have been MIA for quite a while!  We watched our friends house and dog for them while they were out of town for 8 days.  We left our computer at home because it is a desk top and it would have been a pain to drag down and all that jazz.  Note to self:  Buy a laptop next time!  Or in a perfect world have one in addition to a desk top!  It was nice to be mostly disconnected.  I still did instagram but that is pretty much it.  Unplugging is a really healthy thing to do.  At least for me.  It made me more in the moment.  I played more with the kids.  I cooked every night.  It was great!  I am off to enjoy the rest of the night with the kiddos but I will be back tomorrow with a weight loss update.  I will leave you with a haiku about my weight situation to tantalize you.  Really you could read this and not come back tomorrow! ;)

Weight loss haiku

I gained back some weight

Got lost in a cookie haze

It was pretty great  

Weight loss week 1

First post after my first post!  So I maintained my weight this week.  No loss, no gain.  It is frustrating because I feel like I really tried this last week to keep my food in check.  I need to readjust and look at my food intake and make sure that I am being careful about calculating my calories.  With that in mind- I also need to look at the positive and remember that at least I didn't gain.  I do feel like I have lost inches or millimeters as it were.  That feels good!  Even if it is a slight difference- it all adds up and counts!  

My goal for this next week besides eating all my calories is to up my water intake.  I am not so good at that.  I love water but I hate drinking it.  I better get over that.  This is after-all a journey to being healthier not necessarily skinnier.  I also need to do my measurements so that I can have more than one way to track my progress.  The scale can be unforgiving at times!  

Pictures of my progress:  

I did this one nice and sensual for you ;)

Weight loss!

Any one want to talk about weight loss?  Or weight issues?  I could talk about this subject for hours.  It was on my 27 before 28 list and in a post here.  It is something that I have been struggling with my whole adult life.  And most of my teen years for that matter.  I can't even begin to tell you how many programs I have tried and failed at.  I finally got to the point that I decided that I was just suppose to be overweight.  

Then Nicco told Lola that he doesn't want me to be fat.  He used that word!  That little 3 letter word that I hate more than anything but referred to myself as on a weekly (probably daily) basis.  When I talked to him about what he said he told me that he doesn't want me to be fat because he loves me.  I wanted to crawl in a hole and die.  He knows that being overweight causes serious health issues.  He wants me to be healthy.  He asked me why I am overweight.  I told him that it is because I don't eat healthy enough and I don't exercise enough.  I was real with him!  We then talked about what foods are healthy and which are not.  It was an eye opening experience for me.  I need to be a better example for my family.  I need to be better about my choices so that I don't leave them earlier than I should.  I want to be healthy.  I want to be able to take my grandkids to Disneyland.  Those things aren't going to happen unless something changes right now!

So I have started making changes.  I am much more calm about the whole thing.  In the past I felt like I was starting something knowing I would fail.  I would get frustrated that I wouldn't lose the weight overnight.  This time feels very different.  I have come to terms with the fact that it has taken me 28 years to get this way and it will take a bit of time to get it off.  And that I may have set backs and difficult moments (or months) but it will all be worth it in the end.  So far I have lost 8.8 pounds.  Don't tell anyone but I need to lose about 110 more.  It has gotten out of hand!  Obviously.  Lets give you all a visual of where I am starting!      

I will be posting weekly about my weight loss.  I am thinking that maybe I will even wear the same shirt in each picture to get a real idea of what the difference is.  I am not positive how it is all going to go down yet.  For anyone interested in how I am doing it I am using the Lose it! app on my android.  Really all it is is counting calories.  It calculates exactly how many calories a day you need according to how many pounds a week you want to lose.  It can also track your nutrient intake.  If anyone is using the same app- lets be friends!  I am set up under foxandsparrow1@gmail dot com.

This post was difficult for me to write.  I feel very vulnerable and ashamed right now.  But also hopeful!  Please keep that in mind if you decide to comment.  Please be kind!  Thank you!

SO.....

this is a post I have been avoiding for like 6 months.  Back in June I put up my 27 before 28 list.  Number 16 is lose 50 pounds.  At the time I thought that this would be so so easy.  It was pretty much only 1 lb per week.  Well fast forward til today and I have lost 4 ounces.  That means that now I have to lose at least 2 lbs per week.  Not as easy as 1 pound per week but still so very do-able.  As long as there is no more procrastinating!  Or I will have to lose 4 lbs per week then 8 lbs per week etc.  Not my cup of tea.  I am sort of thinking that I am crazy for starting at the beginning of December but no better time than the present, eh?    

I am not totally positive how I am going to start losing weight yet.  This week I am going to focus on portion control and getting all the water in that I am suppose to drink.  I am also going to try a work out that was in this months Women's Health for exercise.  It is an interval training type workout that is only supposed to take 20 minutes.  Perfect for the holidays!!!  I am also open for any healthy suggestions and tips!   

One last thing!  How should I blog it?  Would anyone even be interested in updates?  Weekly healthy recipes?  Pictures weekly?  Pounds lost per week?  Let me know what you all think.  I need all the help and support I can get.

Here is a current picture of myself for your viewing pleasure!

I am excited to start on my journey to a healthier weight! YAY!!