Any one want to talk about weight loss? Or weight issues? I could talk about this subject for hours. It was on my 27 before 28 list and in a post here. It is something that I have been struggling with my whole adult life. And most of my teen years for that matter. I can't even begin to tell you how many programs I have tried and failed at. I finally got to the point that I decided that I was just suppose to be overweight.
Then Nicco told Lola that he doesn't want me to be fat. He used that word! That little 3 letter word that I hate more than anything but referred to myself as on a weekly (probably daily) basis. When I talked to him about what he said he told me that he doesn't want me to be fat because he loves me. I wanted to crawl in a hole and die. He knows that being overweight causes serious health issues. He wants me to be healthy. He asked me why I am overweight. I told him that it is because I don't eat healthy enough and I don't exercise enough. I was real with him! We then talked about what foods are healthy and which are not. It was an eye opening experience for me. I need to be a better example for my family. I need to be better about my choices so that I don't leave them earlier than I should. I want to be healthy. I want to be able to take my grandkids to Disneyland. Those things aren't going to happen unless something changes right now!
So I have started making changes. I am much more calm about the whole thing. In the past I felt like I was starting something knowing I would fail. I would get frustrated that I wouldn't lose the weight overnight. This time feels very different. I have come to terms with the fact that it has taken me 28 years to get this way and it will take a bit of time to get it off. And that I may have set backs and difficult moments (or months) but it will all be worth it in the end. So far I have lost 8.8 pounds. Don't tell anyone but I need to lose about 110 more. It has gotten out of hand! Obviously. Lets give you all a visual of where I am starting!
I will be posting weekly about my weight loss. I am thinking that maybe I will even wear the same shirt in each picture to get a real idea of what the difference is. I am not positive how it is all going to go down yet. For anyone interested in how I am doing it I am using the Lose it! app on my android. Really all it is is counting calories. It calculates exactly how many calories a day you need according to how many pounds a week you want to lose. It can also track your nutrient intake. If anyone is using the same app- lets be friends! I am set up under foxandsparrow1@gmail dot com.
This post was difficult for me to write. I feel very vulnerable and ashamed right now. But also hopeful! Please keep that in mind if you decide to comment. Please be kind! Thank you!
